Project A has finally started, and with a bang!
A double back-to-back session and five meetings in two days with our client. I haven't been in the office since Tuesday and I miss the team!
We had a good kickoff. I was prepared because we've been preparing for weeks now. It's always interesting to find what kind of client and dynamic we are going to have. Nonetheless, still feeling uber stressed. I have not figured if it's because I'm hungry or stressed, but there was a night I couldn't sleep and every night thereafter its just nerves in my belly. I believe it's due to inexperience, so more future sessions later means less stress. We also had our first working session the following day, which was tiring but nice because the content was fresh for our participants. We also changed our style a bit this round and I really feel it just keeps improving each time. It's also the first time I'm really preparing the sessions on my own so it was a lot of brain work figuring flow and making sure we find the easiest way to facilitate co-creation.
I wish I can speak to this work in a snap. Every time I need to speak I'm afraid they'll think I'm a fraud. (see, imposter syndrome and then the Dunning-Kruger effect)
Project B started too, and our first session with them is next week. This one scares me as well, we'll be in a room full of really smart individuals, so what am I to say that they don't already know better? The work is also in an industry I know almost nil about. So maybe some market research and understanding processes and how businesses run will help alleviate the fear.
Project B had deadlines this week too, and we're just getting to know the team as well. We worked until super late. We're swamped.
Balancing two big projects isn't easy.
I'm looking for tools that will help me stay organized and focused. So I'm thinking either meditation or evernote. Something digital or analog? Not sure. Our project team also shrunk from three to two and the lead has two/a heap of other projects/responsibilities so it's on me to step up my game and take care of my part so they don't have to worry/waste extra time teaching vs doing. My goal is to be able to say "let me take care of it" and him not have to worry. Taking more than I can handle? This is probably why my stomach is in knots.
