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There's nothing going in for ECIAD.

And I know it's not Sunday, I didn't post yesterday because my computer is getting away from me and dying.

It's funny, I was having a crazy week and a half of work. I was totally in over my head of things to do. Lack of sleep, lack of food, and where there is a deficiency, there is an overabundance of work. My room was a mess. I'd wake up, grab what I need, go to school, and then come home at night drop it on the ground somewhere tired and go to bed. And my friend messaged me to see how I was doing and suggested that I could take a year off, and that what is an extra year if you are going to dedicate your life to art anyway. And that the difference between professionalism and being a student is the failures and the learning process. And I should go in with a solid foundation, rather than a shaky one because it is going to be even more hard work (blood, sweat and tears) when I make it in if I start shaky. I found it funny because the advice just comes at such curious moments in time and it's nice to find my "san tze shih" looking out for me out there.

So, I realized, Saturday night, that I am going to stop. That I'm way over in my head with the things I want to do, and it is actually impossible to accomplish it all. Ambition is good, but it needs to be realistic. To be doing my portfolio while I am in a non-related program, to be running a school club on the side, to be an active member in a fashion show and other small school extra curriculars, to have a side job at home, and responsibilities at the temple. If I handed in my ECIAD portfolio this week, I would not be able to study for my two midterms and would consequently fail the test, and possibly the course. It's just not worth it. I cannot not graduate! I should take what I have right here, right now, and do it and finish it well and then start working on my future endeavors. They are not going anywhere and neither am I. I think if I pushed and pursued for both things, I would be in a definite lose-lose situation.

So maybe not this year then, the next! Slowly but surely.

But speaking of fashion show, here are my designs from the show. the first two photos are courtesy of this man called Larry Strung at hamilton365.com . Our next show is Mar. 1st at Innis Town Hall UT!